First off How is every one? I myself have been doing quite odd...things are going horribly and well at the same time. (I guess they always sorta do though don't they...) Anyway I personally have not been getting much sleep at all. The earliest I can get to bed is 12:00 P:M EST Time and I get up at 7:00 A:M ( I can never sleep in for some reason, my body just wont allow it) However I do take sleeping pills they just won't work...usually I get to bed at 3:30 A:M. So I feel really awful as this has actually been going on for over three weeks. But to the "Better" news!!!!
Most of you are like 20-30 here (Age Wise) Well I'm still a fricking Softmore in highschool! lol.(16)
If you remember I am from California, but have lived in Oregon for 7 years. But now live in Georgia (Savannah by the way) I had yet to find a lady friend for quite some time. Well I found her about a month and a half ago. It's a really complex situation really. To put it as simple mas possible:
I am afraid of the world and mainly the people in it. This is because of the people that have left me. Left me through Death, betrayal, or abandonment. It has crippled me in the seance of trusting people. That is why I stay at a distance. (Only having friends online such as you guys) As I know you are far away and can't possibly hurt me the same way or to a degree that would matter.
Well this girl makes me not afraid for once. I don't know how or why but it's true. All I know is that when I'm with her and we are talking or even just making eye contact, I'm safe at last. Like when I was a mere child of 6 and didn't know the horrors of the world yet such as death.
So I Have told her how I feel. But I have not said the words; "I want to be with you" Or something along those lines. So what I'm asking for is advice, Man to Man. As my father is emotionally absent, I can't turn to him. As you know my mother is in no condition to here about this, so I'm asking you, my friends. What should I do? How should I handle this? Should I take a chance and ask her out on a real date? Or maybe go really slow and ask her out as a friend first?
I'm at a loss here so please, your wise people, grant me your input.
thank you very much, and I hope all is well.
P.S. In other news I am doing well in school!!!! My average grade for this semester was a B+!!! W00t!!! And I got a A+ On my History Test today
Also my music is coming along...very slowly haha. I think I may have writers block!!!!! :eek!:
Alright I look forward to hearing back from you!!!!! C-ya L8rz!!!!!