Thanks Mainly for the responses guys. Your support means so much to me I really can't put words in it, but thank you.

Ashley first off. I should probably let you know something quite cool. Just know (10:08 P:M EST) I got back from a friends house that I was at ALL DAY!!! We played guitar, piano, listened to music, played Games, made art. It was awesome. I will be getting out in the world a wee bit more now

Also I will check out your book you mentioned. Although I'm dyslexic, I hate reading lol so I might not be to happy with it (Or any book lol) But I WILL give it a chance. Thank you

alee,

Thanks for the advice, it is truly helpful. I will try not to get consumed by my life, I have been before....I'll do my best. also as stated above I WILL be going out more (Not online as much)

Also you have a great point, I don't have to date her to have that feeling of "safety". I'll I have to do is be close to her in some form or another. Be it a friend or Boy-friend. Thanks man very insightful even though I had to read in between the lines to get your message haha.

And lastly to all whom posted the following:

Your right, We won't be able to post topics like this when construct gets bigger. When it goes national we will have to be more careful. In the meantime let's enjoy our little sanctuary on the web, away from the world (Wide web) haha pad pun. Anyway point being it will fade but let's not worry about till the time arises.

C-ya guys, and again thanks you!

Hey Barri167!

Thanks for the support man! It means a lot. I really hope it works out with this girl as a lot of shit is happening in my life right now that I neither need nor can I handle at the moment. She will be my savior. (Though I won't put everything upon her lol) Anyway I really need to get some stuff together and then I'll *try* asking her out in my own way. Although it's true, I don't want to be in the firiend zone, all I want from her is quite simple yet deep in some ways)

*Her Love

*To be able to hold her/her hold me

*Her Trust

What I mean when I say "Her Love" all I mean is I want her to care about me. (I believe she already does) I want her to be there for me-

When I say "Hold her/Hold me" That is actually more literal actually. I truly want to just be in her arms, I believe I could do it for hours, even in a completely Platonic way.

Also I said trust because of the following:

She said in school to call her by "8:20 P:M" one day, so I called at 8:15 P:M that night and she nearly squealed with joy when her father handed her the phone saying that it was me lol.

(I guess her trust has been misused as mine has)

So I want her to trust me. As I will not hurt her (On purpose anyway) I shouldn't make a promise on that one, I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do next....Anyway thanks for the encouragement and I'll tell you guys how it goes but give me time lol I want to be rewady before I sign on for this. Or hell I might ask her next mother F'ing chance I get!!!! Wgho knows

Thanks again-Cya

Thanks for the responses Guys I will respond to both of you now!

Aeal5566:

First off my exact words to her where along the lines of what I told you guys. About being afraid of the world and how I feel safe with her etc. It was probably a good 2 mins of talking lol thankfully I did not bore her. There was unfortunately a silence after I told her though....But you know what she did?

She said:

"Hey, Look at me."

(I slowly lifted my head up to meet my eyes with hers)

"Have you told anyone this before?"

(I was suprised at the question and hesitated to respond)

"No, I haven't come to think of it. Holy shit (I giggled a little when saying "Holy shit") "I can't belive I've put that much trust in someone again."

(There was another silence and I looked down again and unmanly of me started to cry very softly)

"Hey, I'm glad you did, put trust in me"

( Although her words where comforting I continued to weap. So she placed her hand on mine and we sat there for a good five mins, just in silence)

Then my my mother F8ing watch went off at 12:25 saying to get back to school campus. (Off campus lunch-we where at a parkish place on a picnic table)

So yeah that's how it went down....thanks for the response though dude!

Sol:

I know you are a wise man, so I will trust what you say. Also what's funny about her is she likes it when I swear. She likes the way I use "bad" words. Also Two weeks ago (You guys will love this) She practically stole my heart.

We where in Art class. I was doing a trace technique involving printer paper and colored pencils and some other stuff. The image I chose was this one:

<img src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/f/fd/James_sunderland_mirror_t2.jpg/240px-James_sunderland_mirror_t2.jpg">

When she saw me working on it she said:

"Holy Hell!"

What?" (I replied)

"Is that from Silent Hill 2, James Sunderland right?"

"Motherfu**, you know Silent hill!?"

"Why wouldn't I?"

"No, it's just most girls hate Silent Hill."

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And so on and so forth. It just amazed me. She even shares the passion for Violent video games haha. She's F'ing perfect!!!!!

Anyway When I feel the time is right I shall ask her out on a date. But I will not phrase it as a date. If she really wants me back she'll make it a date

Thanks for the help guys it means a lot!!!!! Good to see you again to!!!!

First off How is every one? I myself have been doing quite odd...things are going horribly and well at the same time. (I guess they always sorta do though don't they...) Anyway I personally have not been getting much sleep at all. The earliest I can get to bed is 12:00 P:M EST Time and I get up at 7:00 A:M ( I can never sleep in for some reason, my body just wont allow it) However I do take sleeping pills they just won't work...usually I get to bed at 3:30 A:M. So I feel really awful as this has actually been going on for over three weeks. But to the "Better" news!!!!

Most of you are like 20-30 here (Age Wise) Well I'm still a fricking Softmore in highschool! lol.(16)

If you remember I am from California, but have lived in Oregon for 7 years. But now live in Georgia (Savannah by the way) I had yet to find a lady friend for quite some time. Well I found her about a month and a half ago. It's a really complex situation really. To put it as simple mas possible:

I am afraid of the world and mainly the people in it. This is because of the people that have left me. Left me through Death, betrayal, or abandonment. It has crippled me in the seance of trusting people. That is why I stay at a distance. (Only having friends online such as you guys) As I know you are far away and can't possibly hurt me the same way or to a degree that would matter.

Well this girl makes me not afraid for once. I don't know how or why but it's true. All I know is that when I'm with her and we are talking or even just making eye contact, I'm safe at last. Like when I was a mere child of 6 and didn't know the horrors of the world yet such as death.

So I Have told her how I feel. But I have not said the words; "I want to be with you" Or something along those lines. So what I'm asking for is advice, Man to Man. As my father is emotionally absent, I can't turn to him. As you know my mother is in no condition to here about this, so I'm asking you, my friends. What should I do? How should I handle this? Should I take a chance and ask her out on a real date? Or maybe go really slow and ask her out as a friend first?

I'm at a loss here so please, your wise people, grant me your input.

thank you very much, and I hope all is well.

P.S. In other news I am doing well in school!!!! My average grade for this semester was a B+!!! W00t!!! And I got a A+ On my History Test today

Also my music is coming along...very slowly haha. I think I may have writers block!!!!! :eek!:

Alright I look forward to hearing back from you!!!!! C-ya L8rz!!!!!

Hey peoples,

Thanks for the encouragement

I'll DEFF pop buy every now and then, and hopefully w2ith a tune or two haha...in fact here's one right now!!!!

http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?gnnmto1gj0d

It's an Acoustic song I'm working on for a "Special someone"

I'm going to do a mjor revamping of it and make it more "flowish" as in more like a real song and with better "Flow" It may sound jagged at some parts as I recorded the different sections of the guitar and layered them together, but was to lazy to do it well haha. But it's a WIP right!? So what more do you want, it's 3:20 long by the way. Don't worry about letting me know what you think of it just enjoy it. I'm over at Newgrounds now by the way. (Under Angelus1818 lol) So you can get updates of my music there if I don't post it here

http://angelus1818.newgrounds.com/

there ya go

Anyway I'll always be back to boast when I get new software and graphics cards to so you guys will still see me lol. Thanks again and cya.

P.S. Some of my NG Music sucks YOU HAVE BEEN WORDED!!! lol

Hey Guys,

You all have been so supportive of me when I've asked for help. I can't relive the quality of this forum. I wanted to say sorry for abandoning you all after making deals with a few of you like with Sol for example. My bad man, I should have PMed you that I was giving up. Here's whats up:

My mother just had an amputation of her %&$ing foot, and a bloodclot that almost killed her. So that was not fun. She is stuck in as wealchair FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE. I have to get my drivers license/Permit as soon as possible cause she can't drive anymore really. (She does have hand controls though) Anyway I myself had a crisis that I so not want to go over what's so ever, but let's just say it was really F'ing bad OK?

So things where not going well so I said $%^& Game Making and I turned to the one thing that helps me in my deepest darkness...making/writing music. The best part is (Of course) using a editing software to make it perfect or FL Studio to generate it, but I have decided to devote my spare time to Music now.

If anyone wants to hear me play sometime send me a PM or post in this thread and I'll post/send a MP3(s) of my stuff. Heads up I'm an Acoustic Indie Rock guy

Anyway I'll still come over to talk to you guys on the off topic section every now and then. But overall this is my departure. (Not like I ever really arrived eh?) Anyway thank you for the open arms, they meant a lot to me, still do in fact.

Keep up the good work you got going here Ash, you got a great thing here. I've only seen 1 other place like it. it did not consists of 20-36 year olds however, lol more like 14-20. But hey the older the wiser. I'm not complaining.

See you guys around!!!

-Isaac

PC FTW... Nuff Said

I just got Far Cry 2 on D2D and love love love it!!!! The graphics are just amazing! I have it in DX10 mode with everything on FULL and 1440x900 screen RES. (I know thats not a great RES but it is "HD")

So here are some screens like Sol was talking about at full RES. They are all from the In Game intro so no spoilers...I think

http://img205.imageshack.us/img205/403/farcry21uw4.jpg

http://img151.imageshack.us/img151/6533/farcry22wk4.jpg

http://img134.imageshack.us/img134/1236/farcry23eg8.jpg

I took about 30 screenshots lol but don'y want to upload them all...Enjoy and GET THIS GAME!!!

Yeah...

3D Is waaaay harder then 2D, but I like it so much more. I love being able to walk around in a real world (or fake one for that matter) the fact that I could bring one to life and actually walk around in it astonishes me. I totally forgot about Blenders Game Engine. I might try that as well. Especially the new 2.48 version coming out has a vastly improved 3D Editor for game creation.

Sorry that this has been asked before sounds like many times, I'll admit I didn't search the forums first.

Hey guys,

Thanks for the suggestions, I will look into Blitz primarily. It seems pretty darn awesome. Anyway If you guys have any more ideas don't afraid to thrown them at me. I'm always open to suggestion

Hey whats up peeps!

It's been a few days and I have a simple question for you....I love construct, oh so much. It is the very best 2D Game creation suite. However I really want to make 3D Games. I want to know if there is a program like construct where you can make 3D Games. What I meen by that is:

1: NO Programing Required. I don't want to script. It is alot to learn as a teenager (Coding)

2: Preferably a WYSIWYG Environment.

Thats about it...I'm trying to make a horror game so if that helps you decide so be it. Also please don't give me a lecture on how I should learn a programing language. I am learning C++ and C# for 3D Game Studio. That is my engine of choice however I can't code, yet. (Yes it comes with pre-made scripts I know, they just make your game lame is all)

Thanks for the help as all I've found is 3D RAD and I don't think it would make a very good Horror game...

I think you should forget the pre-k stuff anyway. Like you said this is for people that have already used the Ghost tut and want more. So I think your making a fine decision. I really want to thank you for making this series of tuts. I can't wait to get my hand fully onto construct!!! You will get me there. And once I learn from you I can tech others at my site so really you are a god send

Keep up the good work!!!